Oxytocin is a dangerous thing. It makes me really happy and really love my babies, and I'm fairly certain it's to blame for my sudden desire to have just one more. It's not that I forgot how uncomfortable being pregnant was. It's just that now, holding this little baby, it all seems so darn worth it. Can you be addicted to having babies? (Gina, I actually believe you might be able to answer this question.) If so, I probably need a 12 step program- at least until nursing slows down and I have a little less of this happy hormone coursing through my body.
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| I just love that face |
Having Harrison is amazing. I love watching the older kids with him, I love that he's part of our family, I love that he'll grow up so close in age to his siblings, I love the chaos that this closeness will surely create. But he's a newborn. And I don't think life with a newborn is ever easy. And life with a newborn and an almost 2 year old and an almost 4 year old is absolutely NOT easy. It's a juggling act. It's exhausting. And sometimes it makes me feel like a really terrible mom. In fact, I very rarely feel like a good mom to all three of them at once. I just hope that the relationships they'll have with each other will make up for my failings.
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| She really loves that guy. Is it still considered regressing if she never actually took a pacifier when she was a baby? |
Today was my first solo outing since Harrison was born. I'm still taking baby steps. I went while Landon was in school, so technically I was just a mom of a newborn and an almost 2 year old at the time. Livia, Harrison, and I met up with some friends for lunch. We made it through lunch with no crying, I successfully nursed Harrison and kept control of Livia, everyone was fed, happy, and I was feeling pretty proud of myself as we went to pick Landon up from school (I hate the back and forth to school because it takes so much time and effort to get every one in and then out and then back in the car just to drop him off/ pick him up). We made it into his classroom, gathered up his things, and started back out to the car. I was just thinking to myself how easy it all seemed when Landon started giggling as we were walking down the hallway,
Me: What's so funny, Little Man?
Landon: He, he, he.
Me: What?
Landon: WHERE'S THE DAUGHTER?!? he, he, he.
Me: (panic. Oh crap. I forgot Livia.)
I totally left her behind, playing in his classroom. I'm sure I would have figured it out for myself. Eventually.
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| I realize Landon is under represented in these photos, but the child is really not into having his picture taken |
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| Already! |
1 comment:
I just have to say that I love that Landon called Livia "The Daughter" He is one funny guy!
You must remember that you are a fabulous mother! Although you are not able to give each of your children as much attention as you would like, they all know how much you love and adore them. They are such brilliant, loving, happy children and that is because you and Andy are fabulous parents! :)
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